Sunday, July 11, 2010
Friday, May 28, 2010
To Someone...
Firstly,I've read your blog post.
Its not that i dun credit you for cheering me up you know,i really love you.
You didn't know that you're the only person i confide in when i talk about him,did you?
I trusted you and thought you WERE someone i could confide in and talk to anytime,anywhere.
Seeing your blog post,i shouldn't confide in you anymore from now onwards right?
If it makes you happy.
And less tired.
You dun want me to confide.
Its ok then.
Its not that i dun credit you for cheering me up you know,i really love you.
You didn't know that you're the only person i confide in when i talk about him,did you?
I trusted you and thought you WERE someone i could confide in and talk to anytime,anywhere.
Seeing your blog post,i shouldn't confide in you anymore from now onwards right?
If it makes you happy.
And less tired.
You dun want me to confide.
Its ok then.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
I'M IN LOVE WITH FIQAH'S BROTHER'S CUTEEENESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today was like freaking fun and this post is gonna be long and detailed!
XD XD
After the fvcking hard Geography paper(ok that's NOT fun at ALL),
Met with Sabrina, Afiqah and Faraisha then we walked outta school at 9.32a.m.
(i know its like fvcking early..)
Then Fiqah sent me pictures of SHINee and some boyband i dun know through bluetooth on bus 10 or something..
Then arrived at the bus stop one stop before the one opposite CGH
Then we took 17
And we finally arrived at Downtown East there..
Walked the long way cause fvcking hot-.-
XD
Then reached the place outside NTUC or something
Then bought skittles and mnm's-.-
Wasted $2 seyh
Then had the BBQ chicken thingy..
AND WE FINISHED THE WHOLE CONTAINER OF CHEESE!!!!!!!
XD
XD
XD
XD
XD
Actually not exactly WE..
It was mostly me and partly Fiqah
:P
I practically swallowed the cheese!!
Then we practically laughed like siao there!
:D
Oh then we paid and left
Oh wait before leaving,
WE LEFT A FIVE CENTS TIP FOR THE WAITRESS!!!!!!
Woohoo!
They should really thank us for our generosity:)
And went to the toilet(not gonna mention the fvcking disgusting thing i saw there..)
Then went to the pond thingy
Fvcking fascinated about the turtles(or tortoises..i dun give a fvcking damn)eating the paper thrown in and the ziplog bag from i dunno where
Then me and Sabrina went to Fiqah's house
HER BROTHER IS SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO freaking CUTEEEE~~~~~~~~!!
LIKE TOTALLY!!!
He danced and we laughed like siao:P
But her sister was SCARY!!
Then go home around 3.10
SAD SEYH!
Fiqah..i wanna go your house and see your brother again!
p.s. we were damn fascinated about that hand measuring thingy at her house!
XD XD
After the fvcking hard Geography paper(ok that's NOT fun at ALL),
Met with Sabrina, Afiqah and Faraisha then we walked outta school at 9.32a.m.
(i know its like fvcking early..)
Then Fiqah sent me pictures of SHINee and some boyband i dun know through bluetooth on bus 10 or something..
Then arrived at the bus stop one stop before the one opposite CGH
Then we took 17
And we finally arrived at Downtown East there..
Walked the long way cause fvcking hot-.-
XD
Then reached the place outside NTUC or something
Then bought skittles and mnm's-.-
Wasted $2 seyh
Then had the BBQ chicken thingy..
AND WE FINISHED THE WHOLE CONTAINER OF CHEESE!!!!!!!
XD
XD
XD
XD
XD
Actually not exactly WE..
It was mostly me and partly Fiqah
:P
I practically swallowed the cheese!!
Then we practically laughed like siao there!
:D
Oh then we paid and left
Oh wait before leaving,
WE LEFT A FIVE CENTS TIP FOR THE WAITRESS!!!!!!
Woohoo!
They should really thank us for our generosity:)
And went to the toilet(not gonna mention the fvcking disgusting thing i saw there..)
Then went to the pond thingy
Fvcking fascinated about the turtles(or tortoises..i dun give a fvcking damn)eating the paper thrown in and the ziplog bag from i dunno where
Then me and Sabrina went to Fiqah's house
HER BROTHER IS SOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO freaking CUTEEEE~~~~~~~~!!
LIKE TOTALLY!!!
He danced and we laughed like siao:P
But her sister was SCARY!!
Then go home around 3.10
SAD SEYH!
Fiqah..i wanna go your house and see your brother again!
p.s. we were damn fascinated about that hand measuring thingy at her house!
Saturday, May 1, 2010
Friday, April 23, 2010
Long time no post.
Having major issues.
Emo-ing now and then.
Get high and hyper occasionally.
Don't say you know me, when I don't even know myself.
I think I'm afraid of being happy because everytime I'm happy, something bad always happens.
When I do something great, no one ever seems to remember, but when I do something wrong, no one can ever seem to forget.
There is only one rain cloud in the sky...and it's raining on me. Somehow I'm not surprised.
I wake up and think dreams are real. I sleep so I don't have to feel.
Walking down the hall with her head held high, every hair is in its place, sees a friend and she waves hi, wearing a smile on her perfect face. Friendly, smart, and beautiful, everyone adores this girl. Seemingly content, her head's in a whirl. Inside she's unhappy, and doesn't know why. She lays in her bed at night and cries. She doesn't know what causes the tears; how could this princess have insecurities or fears? She has it all. A pretty smile, many friends, a great guy, the newest trends, her family has money, she gets good grades, has her own car, and her makeup never fades. Always looking happy, every single day, but inside she's feeling a different way. This is wonder girl, she's everyone's dream, but things aren't always what they seem.
Behind my smile is everything you'll never understand.
No matter what, no matter who, no matter what I do, somebody hates me. -Reel Big Fish-
I didn't want to admit it. It was easier to lie. Hide the hurt and emptiness to smile instead of cry.
I've learned it takes years to build up trust, but only seconds to destroy it.
Life doesn't hurt until you think about how much things have changed, who you've lost along the way, and how much of it was your fault.
I don't know if I'm getting better or just used to the pain.
When I cry at night, the only thing I can think to myself is...how can I seem so---perfectly fine in the morning. Why do I smile like nothing is wrong? And how does not one single person notice that I'm not okay?
I don't know what I want in life. I don't know what I want right now. All I know is that I'm hurting so much inside that it's eating me, and one day, there won't be any more of me left. Everything that ever cause a tear to trickle down my cheeks, I run away and hide from it. But now, everything is unwinding and finding its way back towards me. And I don't know what to do. I just know that the pain I felt so long ago, it's hurting ten times more.
Words hurt more than anything else can, because they last, sometimes forever.
It sucks to be alone, even when there are people all around you. -Scrubs-
Have you ever lived my life, have you ever spent one minute in my shoes? If you haven't, then tell me why you judge me like you do.
Every morning you get up and put on a fake smile...but what if one morning you didn't? Would anyone notice?
I'm not saying I have nothing. I'm not saying I'm gone completely. It's just sometimes it's all a bit too much to handle. Sometimes I feel like it's too much. I'm not going to do anything stupid because I know it will get better, it has to right? Otherwise there wouldn't be anyone who would live past their teenage years. But for now, just for now, it hurts.
You know sometimes, like when someone dies, and you're sad, and it's ok to be sad? But then there are times when you're supposed to be happy but you're sad anyway...and those times are even worse than the times when you're supposed to be sad.
~ I just don't feel like I know myself very well right now, so how can I be sure about anything? Most of the time I feel so awkward, you know, like I don't belong in my own skin, I get frustrated at everything, I could just scream and there's no reason for it, I just hate myself.
Credits:http://hope1911.tripod.com/id17.html
Having major issues.
Emo-ing now and then.
Get high and hyper occasionally.
Don't say you know me, when I don't even know myself.
I think I'm afraid of being happy because everytime I'm happy, something bad always happens.
When I do something great, no one ever seems to remember, but when I do something wrong, no one can ever seem to forget.
There is only one rain cloud in the sky...and it's raining on me. Somehow I'm not surprised.
I wake up and think dreams are real. I sleep so I don't have to feel.
Walking down the hall with her head held high, every hair is in its place, sees a friend and she waves hi, wearing a smile on her perfect face. Friendly, smart, and beautiful, everyone adores this girl. Seemingly content, her head's in a whirl. Inside she's unhappy, and doesn't know why. She lays in her bed at night and cries. She doesn't know what causes the tears; how could this princess have insecurities or fears? She has it all. A pretty smile, many friends, a great guy, the newest trends, her family has money, she gets good grades, has her own car, and her makeup never fades. Always looking happy, every single day, but inside she's feeling a different way. This is wonder girl, she's everyone's dream, but things aren't always what they seem.
Behind my smile is everything you'll never understand.
No matter what, no matter who, no matter what I do, somebody hates me. -Reel Big Fish-
I didn't want to admit it. It was easier to lie. Hide the hurt and emptiness to smile instead of cry.
I've learned it takes years to build up trust, but only seconds to destroy it.
Life doesn't hurt until you think about how much things have changed, who you've lost along the way, and how much of it was your fault.
I don't know if I'm getting better or just used to the pain.
When I cry at night, the only thing I can think to myself is...how can I seem so---perfectly fine in the morning. Why do I smile like nothing is wrong? And how does not one single person notice that I'm not okay?
I don't know what I want in life. I don't know what I want right now. All I know is that I'm hurting so much inside that it's eating me, and one day, there won't be any more of me left. Everything that ever cause a tear to trickle down my cheeks, I run away and hide from it. But now, everything is unwinding and finding its way back towards me. And I don't know what to do. I just know that the pain I felt so long ago, it's hurting ten times more.
Words hurt more than anything else can, because they last, sometimes forever.
It sucks to be alone, even when there are people all around you. -Scrubs-
Have you ever lived my life, have you ever spent one minute in my shoes? If you haven't, then tell me why you judge me like you do.
Every morning you get up and put on a fake smile...but what if one morning you didn't? Would anyone notice?
I'm not saying I have nothing. I'm not saying I'm gone completely. It's just sometimes it's all a bit too much to handle. Sometimes I feel like it's too much. I'm not going to do anything stupid because I know it will get better, it has to right? Otherwise there wouldn't be anyone who would live past their teenage years. But for now, just for now, it hurts.
You know sometimes, like when someone dies, and you're sad, and it's ok to be sad? But then there are times when you're supposed to be happy but you're sad anyway...and those times are even worse than the times when you're supposed to be sad.
~ I just don't feel like I know myself very well right now, so how can I be sure about anything? Most of the time I feel so awkward, you know, like I don't belong in my own skin, I get frustrated at everything, I could just scream and there's no reason for it, I just hate myself.
Credits:http://hope1911.tripod.com/id17.html
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Monday, April 12, 2010
Bad day..
Hiies to all.Seems like no one's reading but i dun give a damn so i'll just post..
My current feelings:
Ouhkays,seems like no one bothers.i know i'm a hateful bitch from hell.Fvcking bitch.i know.I'm more hated than *whoever*.Yeah.i'm neglected,whatever?Its not surprising that no one likes me at all in class,since i've been hated from Primary school.I tend to joke more with good friends..i thought they WERE friends so joking with them wasn't a problem.But who expected the people whom i told my closest-to-heart secrets spilled EVERYTHING.yeah.that's why i cried in school toilet today without anyone noticing.No big deal eh.I dun confide in anyone in school..its not a want-or-not issue its whether i can find someone whom i can confide to.Emo?nope Is they dun wanna talk to me.SO BE IT!>
My current feelings:
Ouhkays,seems like no one bothers.i know i'm a hateful bitch from hell.Fvcking bitch.i know.I'm more hated than *whoever*.Yeah.i'm neglected,whatever?Its not surprising that no one likes me at all in class,since i've been hated from Primary school.I tend to joke more with good friends..i thought they WERE friends so joking with them wasn't a problem.But who expected the people whom i told my closest-to-heart secrets spilled EVERYTHING.yeah.that's why i cried in school toilet today without anyone noticing.No big deal eh.I dun confide in anyone in school..its not a want-or-not issue its whether i can find someone whom i can confide to.Emo?nope Is they dun wanna talk to me.SO BE IT!>
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